Narcotics

Pain. Relief, no more pain, it's gone.
I feel sedated, peaceful, immunity runs through my veins. Drowsiness, I feel numb, I am numb. I feel relief, tolerance, euphoria. My senses are sharpened. I can hear every sound, I can see the secrets hidden in the dark. I can feel beyond surfaces. I can smell purity. I can taste the poison that brought me back to life.
All sorts of thoughts, visions...I feel invaded. I know it all and it's more than I can take, it's just too much and I can't stand it. I've set my foot on hell adn I wanna go back. Nausea, I feel sick, my head aches, my eyes burn, my heart stops. I can't speak nor breathe, I'm suffocated and alive again.
But I need it again. I want to go back. I want to feel numb. I need to die and come back again. My precious venom! I need it again to breathe, to bleed, to live.